MY STORY and the light at the end of the tunnel!

For some reason i wasn't that excited for university, i knew that i should be and i wanted to be, but i just wasn't. Now before you judge me as an anti-social loner, i actually consider myself as quite an outgoing person who's fairly confident, however that all changed in freshers week. I spent the first night of freshers week crying in the toilets, i felt low, depressed and out of my depth. It didn't help that I didn't get in to my first choice uni!

I then spent the next weeks paranoid that one aloof housemate didn't like me, my happiness depended on how attentive she was to me, if she replied with just a grumble, i was devastated! I was on constant edge as i wasn't quite used to the 'boy banter' that i was witnessing, the house seemed very lacking in love. My heart beat was constantly risen, in fact when i registered at the campus doctor's, i was actually told I had high blood pressure, i had been in panic mode for weeks so it didn't surprise me.

The first boy that showed me any attention i went crazy for, the thought of stability and security was what i needed, my over enthusiasm clearly drove him away! If i had a conversation with someone, i would then analyse the conversation for hours afterwards, convinced i was being weird. I would go through each of my housemates in my head a ask myself 'do they still like me?' I felt like i was living in a house with such big personalities, all so head strong and all quite selfish, i couldn't get my voice heard.

Fast forward to the present and i am pleased to say i've come a long way, i'm in a better place now, I can still have low days but so do the best of people! I dance like noone's watching, i wear crazy costumes, i have an amazing boyfriend and i hold my head high! Here's what i tell myself everyday!

*Love yourself
*Life is good
*We are lucky to be in education
*You'll always have your relatives
*it's okay to be quiet sometime
*alone time is essential
*be responsible for your own happiness
*rely on yourself
*trust your own judgement
*people are privileged to hear you speak
*cherish the people who have been in your life longer
*don't morph into other people, be yourself and remember your morals
*remember people with bad attitudes will have their down falls
*you don't need anyone's approval but your own
*other people's thoughts are irrelevant to your life
*Live for YOU
*Appreciate the here and now
*Allow yourself to feel sad at times
*Don't be afraid to stand up for yourself, awkwardness can achieve good things!
*cut yourself some slack!
*don't take everything so seriously
*people aren't judging you, in fact, they barely care!
*Always look for more rational explanations
*everyone gets tired and grumpy
*don't question if someone likes you, question if you like them!
*no regrets, just lessons!
*wake up knowing the day ahead is going to be good!
*remember you're amazing!